about my life

Hello everyone, my name is Mert. I am 26 years old and I live in Turkey. I have been gambling online since 2018. During these eight years, I have lost somewhere between $150,000 and $200,000. I kept gambling because I thought I could reduce my losses and eventually quit, but the more I continued, the deeper I got into debt. At the moment, I have around $31,000 in debt, while my monthly income is only $1,000. I have reached a point where I am thinking about ending my life because I no longer believe I have the strength to work and pay off this debt. I am absolutely certain that if I could somehow clear my debt, I would not continue gambling. I know that gambling has destroyed my life, and I desperately want to stop. But I cannot give myself the chance to start over because I simply do not earn enough to get out of this situation. Please, if there is anyone who can help me in any way, I would be incredibly grateful. If I ever have the opportunity to repay you, I promise that I will do everything I can to pay you back. I lost myself completely in roulette, blackjack, and every other form of gambling. I desperately want to get my life back.